aroomofherown

 overthinking is definitely a constant in my life. old habits die hard after all. i am an observer more than i am a do-er, which sucks because i seem to be surrounded by doers. so most of the time i feel like i am stuck. only waiting for deadlines to occupy 99% of my brain, making me freeze in place. and that is when everything crumbles around me. i look around and i do nothing. observing won't take me far but it is all i seem to be able to do. i have tried to accept stillness, enjoy quietness, but the world needs the opposite-- movement, action. what to do. what to do. i feel like i know the answer: to keep going. but my body does not want to cooperate. suga from bts once said that to get out of a slump is to just keep going. since i heard those words from the first time, it's all i have been doing. mindlessly moving on, turning in assignments, writing, reading, somehow even getting my bachelor's degree. i still wonder how have i managed to make it this far. twenty-two yea